Resolutions?

I hate the idea of the New Year's resolutions. That is probably because when you think or hear about a resolution made at the start of the new year you automatically wonder how long it will take to break it. So my timing is bad, the desire and need to make a change just happens to come now. I find myself wondering (and trying to fight off this thought) if I have already failed, if this New Years resolution is doomed. All I can do is fight every single day to stay on track. If I slip up (and I will) I can't take it as a sign of defeat and just give up. I know that mistakes will happen and that is ok but I can't use it as an excuse anymore. To jump start this new "diet" I am considering a two day juice cleanse. I have never done a cleanse but I think it might be a great way to start feeling healthier right away, I just hope that I can keep the juices down! So whatever it is that I call this decision to get healthy... I will not fail, definitely stumble and fall a few times, but I will cross that finish line.

Honesty

I have been through too much to be heading back here... back to tight fitting clothes, to being uncomfortable all the time, to being so upset about the fact the scale has been going up that I eat to feel better. This has to change. It will change. It is already changing. The lap-band surgery that I had over 3 years ago brought be me from 260 to 177 at my lowest. Now I am up above that 200lb mark, that I SWORE I would never ever see again, and I am so sick of promising myself that I will be thinner, healthier, stronger by this time next year. I have done this already, I lost a huge amount of weight, I can do this and I will continue to do it. Being lazy is not an option and I will be holding myself accountable.